No hope, more life
The most effective way I’ve found, even to this day, to regain some of my self-confidence and self-mastery lies in the experiential understanding of my disempowering emotions. The psycho-emotional erosion they have inflicted on my psyche manifests clearly somewhere in the body, and the moment of therapeutic re-experiencing is a surgical process designed to occur precisely without the soothing power of anesthesia. I feel different parts of my body ache intensely; usually the liver, in severe cases the centre of the chest (heart and lungs), but statistically most often it’s the back, right behind the thorax (heart, shoulder blades) that gets triggered. In extreme moments, I spontaneously whisper, “I feel frozen.” Exactly that. I am completely frozen, incapable of understanding what is happening without awareness of what it’s about. This…
